Friday, 19 December 2008

I will never...

I will never learn to 'play hard to get'

I will never hide how I feel

I will never stop loving

I will never blame

I will never stop hoping

I will never stop missing

I will never stop dreaming

I will never stop writing

I will never stop trying to stop all contact

I will never ever be able to end contact

I will never stop praying that he sees the change and asks me back

I will never mail those letters

I will never regret having him

I will never stop regretting how I behaved when I had him

I will never let myself be immature again

I will never stop wondering

I will never stop telling him that I am there

I will never stop being a fool

I will never give up

I will never give in

I will never stop myself from getting hurt

I will never stop him from leaving

I will never disappoint him again

I will never act like an idiot if he came back

I will never stop expressing even my sappiest of emotions on this blog

I will never down play my own self in my eyes again

I will never stop believing in who I am

I will never think I dont deserve what I have

I will never scream on the phone again no matter how angry I am

I will never ever think that P doesnt care

I will never take P or any of my other friends' for granted

I will never get seriously jealous again

I will never hurt myself or loathe myself

I will never put all the blame on me and me alone

I will never stop singing

I will never stop loving my parents

I will never stop cherishing my brothers

I will never lose Ree

I will never forget

I will never lose sight of who I am and who I want to be

I will never over expect from myself

I will never forget to b happy with the little things

I will never compete unnecessarily

I will never get lost in the crowd

I will never be scared to get lost

I will never take my dreams and goals for granted

I WILL TAKE CARE OF YOU THE WAY I HAD PROMISED

I will show you that I love myself now and I am still the one you had met

I will....

And I am praying hard for my miracle... I am.... :)

7 comments:

The Lover said...

Beautiful!

umangexuberance said...

contradictory and gorgeously so..
I don't know why, but when u write, its like u r giving words to my very thoughts at that moment..
tc

hfm said...

Good luck!
These seem like difficult statements to keep but I'm sure you'll manage it.

Daanish said...

Never say never,who knows what comes next?

Be peace with oneself,forgive yourself:world will come to you!

AnnaChronism said...

awww all the best ! <3

zephyr said...

To all of you.. THANK YOU SO MUCH!! :)

iggy said...

Wooah 'I will never give up

Woaah I will never give in'


I just wanna be, wanna be loved!
-Papa Roach

Awesomely done!