Thursday, 1 October 2009

I am not confused.. not anymore...
And I haven't been this happy in ages...
Yet I feel like there is something missing somewhere... Like I had to do something.. But I cant remember what..

I feel like I have swayed from my actual purpose... the funny part being I have no clue what my actual purpose was.. Nothing stops the constant buzzing in my head.. And the buzzers keep blowing off like an alarm at the end of each day screaming that I've wasted another day doing something that I don't really believe in..

They all tell me I am trying to be a Don Quixote, expecting to change the world... And what angers me most is that I have no arguments to defend my stand...

I am swaying...

15 comments:

Anonymous said...

you are growing old and after few years you will become unattractive! you need a man.

Rohit Syal said...

@Anonymous : in defense of Zephyr...This is not about "growing old" but about growing UP.
We all have our gray moments when we question whether what we are doing .. with our lives or professions has any meaning or not.
ps - Zeph has a man.. and a damn good one.

and Zeph..don't let the "Don Quixote" in you die out..it's what makes you..you. cheers !

Anonymous said...

hi Rohit, your message means tat zeph atleast doesnot have a woman ;) ...but it is strange tat zeph wants someone else to talk about her...advocate her....why is she not defending herself....r u her man??

Rohit Syal said...

first off,my friend,she does not "need" or "want" anyone to defend her..she simply chooses to maintain a dignified silence.
Am sure that,if instead of leaving anonymous comments,you came forward and introduced yourself, she would happily address your statements.
and no, am not "her man" as you so masterfully put it,am i am someone who knows her very well and am therefore qualified to speak on her behalf.

zephyr said...

@anonymous: dude u are mighty vela to worry about whether i hav a man or nt.. n seriously is tht wat u figured aftr reading the post?? tht i need a man?? sheeeesh.. think i need to improve my communication skills :P
And my man is wondering whether he shud also create an id so tht he can personally assure u tht I hav fasaoed a dude before i turn into a hag :P

@rohit: u are so awwwwwww... n my 'man' is damn impressed too :)..
Thank u for standing up for me.. it obviously means alot.. Though we still disagree about the whole purpose of life thing :P.. comment on tht..

Anonymous said...

hey it just reminded me of the song "i am the only man who can love u like i can...."

zeph tell me how u fasoed ur man?? it would be a good post. and i will also know how rohit played the role - was he a broker, intruder or just a spectator to watch u sway away into someone else's arms.

zephyr said...

wow i have my own personal paparazzi who wants to know intimate details of my personal life..
U are getting on my nerves anonymous...

Anonymous said...

i love these mindgames

Anonymous said...

i love these mindgames

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Anonymous said...

You preach about waiting for love. Well, here it is, right in front of you, and you're going to turn your back on it. So that makes you a hypocrite.
- said by Sebastian in Cruel Intentions

Da said...

hahahaa!!! this anonymous person's funny.. people like him always add that lil bit of spice to one's blog.. too bad zephyr's annoyed at you, or i'd ask you to play on :)

anyhow zephyr, it's quite the boat you've found yourself in. so many of us have been thru it (r/c 'driftwood' and 'raging tide' in my archives, and your encouraging comments are my own versions of 'swaying'). i dunno about u, but when i was down, it seemed like every1 else was doing so well, but i couldn't see any direction. i knew that wasn't true, just as i'm sure you know that isn't true as well. like i said, it's quite the boat, but often all the other passengers are just invisible. sometimes the direction is simply where you're headed, when you can't see the way. the fog'll clear soon enough, dear...

Anonymous said...

zeph! why dont u fulfill my request...write ur story...it is just a blog!

Anonymous said...

Dear Zeph, wish u a happy diwali. i enjoyed making u nervous last few days. just a small suggestion...bcoz u write good.....speak for urself....dont beg/command others to speak for you....i dont know how it will affect ur public life....bt yes ur personal life will become public.......and later noone will like it....not u nor ur man....or not even ur close friends...who have grown up with the concept of privacy! u may choose to delete this comment.

Raghav said...

u do sway quite a bit
like a lone boat in the middle of the river.

but there's nothing wrong with that...until u start getting seasick

careful...