I will never...

I will never learn to 'play hard to get'

I will never hide how I feel

I will never stop loving

I will never blame

I will never stop hoping

I will never stop missing

I will never stop dreaming

I will never stop writing

I will never stop trying to stop all contact

I will never ever be able to end contact

I will never stop praying that he sees the change and asks me back

I will never mail those letters

I will never regret having him

I will never stop regretting how I behaved when I had him

I will never let myself be immature again

I will never stop wondering

I will never stop telling him that I am there

I will never stop being a fool

I will never give up

I will never give in

I will never stop myself from getting hurt

I will never stop him from leaving

I will never disappoint him again

I will never act like an idiot if he came back

I will never stop expressing even my sappiest of emotions on this blog

I will never down play my own self in my eyes again

I will never stop believing in who I am

I will never think I dont deserve what I have

I will never scream on the phone again no matter how angry I am

I will never ever think that P doesnt care

I will never take P or any of my other friends' for granted

I will never get seriously jealous again

I will never hurt myself or loathe myself

I will never put all the blame on me and me alone

I will never stop singing

I will never stop loving my parents

I will never stop cherishing my brothers

I will never lose Ree

I will never forget

I will never lose sight of who I am and who I want to be

I will never over expect from myself

I will never forget to b happy with the little things

I will never compete unnecessarily

I will never get lost in the crowd

I will never be scared to get lost

I will never take my dreams and goals for granted

I WILL TAKE CARE OF YOU THE WAY I HAD PROMISED

I will show you that I love myself now and I am still the one you had met

I will....

And I am praying hard for my miracle... I am.... :)