yet another one of those posts...

sigh... I dont know anything about Love I think...
Ive been told that Love doesnt work in the terms of Black or White.. that is it is wrong for me to believe that you either love someone or you dont...
I am confused... incredibly confused...
Of course I want to believe that love works in mysterious ways and that what I've lost I'll get back if an effort is made... But am I fooling myself in believing that? Am I trying to believe in it so that I derive hope from something that has lost all its meaning in his eyes?
I dont have these answers and I have lost the will to search further... People have given me excellent advice.. have told me to back off... stop this crazy interaction... accept reality...
Yet I keep hanging on... hoping that it is true... that Love comes back when a true effort is made...
I am no saint and I very well know where I faltered...
Irrespective of what happens I know I'll improve as a person... Learn. Reassess.
And I know new dreams will be made too...
But yet... this hope... this never ending hope... that it'll all be what it was...